2 months ago.
I just started to feel like I was the happiest woman, as my two young children were growing up well and they have slept in their bedroom since last June; my husband was always supportive and caring, and we have more time to be together; I also had more time for myself. I dressed more beautiful. I picked up new make up skill. I had best hair days.
These 2 months.
My 4 year old, May who has started her nursery last Jan, suddenly showed refusal to go to her nursery almost every alternate morning. Not only this, she has given me all sort of problems, and I suspect that she is in her terrible fours. I have also talked about it in my earlier entry.
My 6 year old, April has no behavior problem at school and day time, suddenly came into my room 3am/4am for 3 continuous nights. First night, April told me she was hot, and told me that she couldn't sleep back. I checked the room temperature and it was just fine. I asked her again in the morning, she admitted that she was scared of monster. Second night, she came into my room again and claimed that she was cold. I tried to talk her and reassure her for her fear. Third night, she came into my room, she also woke her sister up. I lost my sleep, April lost her sleep and so as May. When May woke up tired, she showed more tantrum and it was even harder to get her ready to school. I went mad. I put all the blamed to April. I spanked April a few times on her tights on the third night. I feel that I am not happy as I were 2 months ago. Why all my angels have suddenly turned into monsters? I also hate myself for yelling and spanking my children like crazy woman. What have gone wrong actually? Anyone knows? Please....