Don't tell me my fears are sillyI have written about April's fear at sleep in my earlier post. We spent the whole last weekend bringing her to pray at the big and small Taoism temples. I don't plan to bring her to a doctor, as I know the doctor will only provide her medical help for her sleep anxiety symptoms.
I am not a very superstitious person but I really have no cue on why my princess April suddenly became so cranky and disturbed at night. I brought this topic out for discussion with my closer buddies, be it in the office or in my yoga lesson. I seems like getting some hints after some discussions.
1. Her fear started on Wednesday morning 3am (14.04.2010), which was first day of 3rd month in Chinese Lunar Calendar. 3rd month is also considered as Qing Ming month, which is one of the Chinese wedding taboo months, other than the 7th month.
2. April was in Monkey zodiac, this zodiac was actually not accepted to go for Qing Ming this year, be it in front of the tomb at the memorial park or at the temple. All blame it to my ignorance of this Qing Ming taboo, and still brought them there.
I hope all the praying that we did during the weekend, and all the "Ang Kung Hu" that we got for her, would eventually calm her mind and get better sleep. I had also swifted April and May to sleep with us in our bedroom.
Nevertheless, I feel so guilty for spanking her, as I thought she was purposely doing it to get the attention. Now only I know that something is actually disturbing her during her sleep, and that is totally out of what she could control. Her fear for 'it' is more than her fear for my scolding and spanking. That is why she kept coming to my room and just plead that I didn't tell her, her fear are silly. She just wanted to tell me that "They are terribly real to me and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand."
We tried to bring April for some dim sum as breakfast to cheer her up a bit.