Am I pushing myself too hard?
I don’t think that I am emotionally stress, I am more to physically stress.
My stress is due to several factors as below.
- Overly demanding sports or exercise schedule without adequate rest
I am addictive to exercise. Skipping Zumba, hiking, yoga and running make me feel guilty. I engage in two rounds of exercises on most weekends. My body is worn out.
- A hectic lifestyle which can lead to physical tension and shallow breathing
May was not doing quite well in her March exam. I blame myself for not spending enough time to guide her. I make it a point to check all her homework every day. I check her mathematics questions, I review her English, BM and Chinese activity books. Besides trying to accomplish all my duty as a mother and wife in my family, I am also striving to perform as competitive as I can at work.
- Lack of sleep
I am always running short of time to do so many things in one day. I wake up early (5:45am) and I sleep late too (11:30pm). Because of all the stress, I do not obtain quality sleep that I need badly.
As a result, I feel tired and sleepy most of the time, but I try to hide. I get agitated and angry easily, but I try to suppress. I feel down and tensed up too, but I try to cover.
Obviously, my complexion reveals the truth, I have broken out to a few hormonal pimples on my face. My skin is not as glowing as before due to hormone imbalance. At the same time, I lose some weight which I can tell when putting on my working pants.
I am longing for a holiday, which I can take a break from my routine. I can’t wait for the next school holiday. I want to rejuvenate my body and relax my mind.
Luckily I still can pen down my mind here and be truthful to myself, in order to feel a bit better.